The time made me forget why I was about to write this....
But I was in pain, a soul pain, my head woke up with pain, but it was worst when I started to cry, all started to look all it all darker...
I knew I should keep my mind away from that, nevertheless, I've been listening Astor Piazzolla for a almost all the evening! creepy feelings are aroused into my soul... like tentacles trying to keep my mind in that mud! my legs are getting heavier, my arms, my voice!
I love my boyfriend, that's a fact, it mades me mad see him thanking to someone else for their birthday messages but mines... he did it, but secretly, so, I erased my sweet cheesy message for his birthday, and I sent him it in private; he got mad when I published that we were engaged, seems that he wanted to keep all of this in secret, apparently Im ok with that, I even would be his lover if he would be married already!
I love this guy, and when I feel fears, or weakness, I cannot hold them back... I'm not sure if I make a mistake about telling him all of that, all of my inner fears, all of my stuff, he's going to think that he's going to married a totally insecure woman! a depressed one...
What can I say in my selfdefense, I don't want to feel myself as a neurotic woman!!
May I say that when I hear his voice all the things in the world start to make sense for me?
I love him!
